18.. &; so on

Im on the precipice of adulthood &; yet ill still be classified as a TEEN henceforth being able to keep my blog title for atleast two more years ( YAY ) . Truth is i feel as though i lost my childhood. It left me so fast I cant believe Im almost grown &; then ill sync into the normality of the whole adult cycle. Sleep, Work , Sleep, Cook, Work etc. maybe not all in the order but none the less beautiful normality.........EW . Im sorry if unwilling to be in that whole category but Im abnormal always have been &; Im pretty damn proud of that fact . I like wearing clothes that dont match and, shoes that never fit &; i buy clothes at walmart and forman mills cause im BROKE &; I love it . Im me and i know time may change things but I hope I don't change.

I spent last night laying on a trampoline next to my Boyfriend looking into the sky wondering where my father is and listening to forever young and to me I think ill remember that moment in time forever, cause I do want to be that way atleast at heart . who wants to loose themselves to a cold heart .. definitely not me you cant take things so seriously and live life so guarded. I know I have but im trying to change that .