Parachute

its been months...

as we all know im hopelessly depressed and screwed up. and when i last spoke to you all i had just got into this relationship with bus guy ; its been three months now.

his name is Anthony and he's my bestfriend in this whole world. He's laughed with me in the good times and held my hand in the bad. He's the most amazing person i've met .

School ; my school is still closing at the end of my junior year "p , but for next year ive decided on goin to ryan ; which should be fun seeing as how anthony's amazingly great (sarcasm) ex-girlfriend goes there YAY! ; on the upside my bestfriend Mark is goin there so itll be AMAZING!

Job ; i just got a call for and interview @ 4 on thursday im pretty PSYCHED! lol i need money !

life; I suppose im learning to better cope with my depression , In march my Daddy passed away and I know i havent always spoken highly of him but we were finally pieceing our relationship back together i was even gonna spend the summer with him in texas . But hes moved on and im not happy and i wasnt prepared and ive lost my faith but im trying to be okay i know he wouldn't want me to be sad . Also my family is kinda breaking apart my sister has pretty much removed me from her life ... and idk what i did or how to fix it. I miss her i hope she knows that .

as the tide turns im writing more praying less trying harder and hoping for the best. planning a future with what i can saving my money for an apartment next summer . doing what i can to be happy again.