the UnCrushed Crush ... ?

Okay I'm stupid I'll admit that, the hell was I thinking; charming and I are just not going to work. Turns out the glass slippers doesn't always fit. He doesn't know any of this yet and I really don't know how I'm going to go about telling him. If I tell him before my birthday it'll be right cause if I wait and tell him after it'll be like I just wanted presents and that would officially make me a BEOTCH! It's just hard because I do really love him, I just don't feel the same way about our relationship anymore. He broke my heart and I can't sit here and act like it never happened. "p It goes without saying that I'm dreading telling him... I'll keep you posted as to how that goes.

On to the whol reason for the title... drum roll please

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BUS GUY! , haha I'm overdoing it a little but whatever, I have raging hormones it's excuseable. Well readers I was pretty upset yesterday when Charming decided to show up at my school and walk me to my bus stop and try to be all kissy face while bus guy was right there ! Of course I had to tell him about himself and ask him to not do any p.d.as. Either way the undisclosed was known and bus guy saw "(. I was so bummed because I really like the guy and he had to see that. It was even worse because when we got on the bus he didn't talk to me at all and then he didn't even get on the second bus with me. Now I can't blame him but it bummed me out more for being a dumb ass. I thought the worst he'll never talk to me again or he'll think bad of me etc. My crush had been crushed and I was in ice cream sweatpants mode. That is until today anyway. He caught both buses with me today and sat next to me and we even chatted a bit. He didn't even bring up yesterday. I was pretty stoked, but right now reading what I wrote maybe he wasn't into me or maybe he doesn't care I have/had a fella? UGH! I suck at being single, it's all about reading people. I can read guys all my friends are guys, I know things no female should know and yet when it comes to reading guys that I like I'm clueless. IT SUCKS! Either way I look forward to those bus rides.