my RETURN !

wow its been so long &; im kind of disappointed in myself seeing as how i made a commitment to my blogging world . Even stil so much has been happening, so much has changed. Only i wouldnt say i have changed, ill say i've grown up some more. There's ben a question on my mind lately &; im just wonderinq if i lack conviction ? ;; yesterday i had a bit of an epihany . It was my boyfriends 19th birthday and i made cakes ( plural yes theyre are alot of plp that live with him so i had to make sure their was enough ) anyways soo i didnt want to catch the bus with 3 cakes a present and my purse ( im not corrdinated at all so it wouldve ended badly ) ;; needless to say i asked for a ride so we were up the block from my man's house at a sto light and my step father and i were rearended ; a few hours later after the crash the police report and Dennis blowing out his candle , we decided to go to the hospital . My mother stepfather and I spent 6 hours in the hospital and we found out i have an internally bruised thigh & a stranded back & my step father has a bruised kidney & a spraind neck ... my mom kept sayin we were broken . Either way as i sat in my e.r room my mind wondered &; subconsiously started thinking about everything. I realized life is to short and the past is the past theres no reason to hold onto a grudge over something soo irrelvent &; waste great friendships . Its funny because i said to myself when everything happened like i started distancing myself from certain plp because of issues we had i said i wont be the one to fix it i wont do it . Sometimes u have to be, you have to swallow your pride and save something worth saving.