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I've been readinq a lot readinq studyinq & my boyfriend have basiclly just been it...I've been ignorinq anythinq outside of my own reality..I read the book & the whole situation I read deeply into the words the author portrayed about heart break.. & numbness & jusz how different life can be .. & idioiticly I let myself slip back into that void..that nothinqness ..that's mainly the reason I'm writinq to possibly vent buh somehow I feel somethinq wronq in the air around me.. I'm lost in myself mawlinq over my actions my feelinq searchinq for answers one day & not wantinq clarity the next not wantinq anythinq period...irony seems to constant present it self around me..once somethinq ignites my thouqhts on my past ..I'm gone & I dunt ever kno when ill be me again